My submissive journey: good news

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I'm IN!

Yay i got in!!

Yep, March 18th i get my geek-hat on and start to study to become a Programmer *grins*

And today i was on a seminar that Adobe held here in Stockholm, about Adobe Creative Cloud -was soooo kewl! Just to sound a bit extra geeky =P

But then again...

Up and Running again!

More or less literally!

http://melindagetsfit.wordpress.com/

It's time to get back to this => again!

Yep, i'm here!

And....it's good. Really good. We're good.
As you know i haven't blogged much lately (read ages), so there's quite a void of information in your direction.
Let me fill you in, as best i can ( you know me and my memory and time perspective and...yeah well all that )...
Over the last few weeks things haven't been as usual between me and Brutus. We've been arguing. Bickering. Discontented. Now, although i am can be very argumentative we've never really argued before. Not as in fighting. Disagreed yes, of course, but not like this. We've both been upset with one another, angry with each other and i think just generally....off. As much as it has sucked i think it has brought something positive with it too.
Rocking the boat may be precarious at times, but it is needed to get ripples on still waters. We needed ripples. The waters had been stock still for far too long, and with it frustration brought to the surface for both of us.
It's been a bit difficult but i think it had to be done and that it was done at the right time at that.
Now i'm here and we're good.
It feels like we're closer, much more warmer towards each other than last time and....connected. Oh and horny! *LOL* we've been fucking like rabbits!
Was kinda fun when Brutus' parents asked what we've done since i arrived "Eeh uhm, we went food shopping and...ehm...we've slept in..." i think Sir's reply was. *LMAO* =P
Well can't really tell the folks we've fucked 5-6 times a day *lol* add spanking to that and i think He'd be in the dog house =P

Speaking of, we had a pretty good spanking session last night. Maintenance style. During it we talked, we laughed and well...occasionally i winced and Ow!'d ;)
He used The Meany crop, the paddle brush and those big hefty hands of His. Oh and the evil shoe horn! But it was used nicely.
It was good.
i'm hoping for more of where that came from. And play. Hopefully punishment won't be needed, but if it is warranted then that too.

So, we're pretty good.
I only got here late Friday evening, so we have another week before i go back home.

I'll try to keep you updated on the ups and downs and ins and outs (pun intended ;)) of what's going on here in Brutusland.

Till then, be well, stay safe and be happy!

If You’re Brave Enough To Let Go Of Your Past…

"If this is the moment I stand here on my own

If this is my rite of passage that somehow leads me home

I might be afraid, but it's my turn to be brave

If this is the last chance before we say goodbye

At least it's the first day of the rest of my life

I can't be afraid, 'cause it's my turn to be brave"

that's the chorus to a song that's been referenced in a fan fic i've been reading (yes, i'm back on that! shame on me). It's a very angsty and at times quite dark story. At one time (like almost 2 years ago now) i had to stop reading it. It was too much....like me. Those of you that have been with me for some time know i have issues and that the last 2 years have been very up & down.

Damn i had this post all worked out!

Hmm actually i think i mentioned it recently; the issue with my dad and his death. Or rather the issue of going to the cemetery. Soon it's been 10 years since he died. I've been there twice since. Once, the first, was when my nana past (dad's mum), the service was in the same place. I didn't linger. Second time was a bit more recent, 6 months maybe?, after i moved here anyways -which happens to be very close to the cemetery btw *sigh*.

Anyways i think i'm rambling. Point of the story is that in the fic the girl goes to her mother's grave for the first time. There she sings this song. I read it yesterday. I listened to the song. I listened to the song today, re-read some of the chapter, listened to the song again, and decided that i too would be brave.
Hyperventilating i downloaded the song to my phone, grabbed my headphones, pulled my hoody over my head, shoes on my feet, pulled on jacket, grabbed keys and left the house.
And....oh i forgot to tell you about the second time! *Eye roll*
Anyways i was walking/jogging to nursery to pick TB up, the road leads me past the cemetery, and i decided to run through it, trying to stop by the memorial grounds on the way. If i stayed a minute i'd be surprised. Panic attack and i fled running.

But you know what? I did it! Today i fucking did it!

I pulled on my headphones, choosing to listen to the very same song as mentioned above

and walked there -and STAYED!

i was gonna write so much more, of how the sun shone at significant moments, and of how i strayed from my way home and ended up on the cliffs, every song heard and every moment spent making pieces fall into place. But it's not really there any more. So i'll leave you here, with this very beautiful, and to me empowering, song.
It wasn't easy, but it was good.

I'm good.

IT = going to see Sir!

YAY!!

Doing the Right Thing

Today is Wednesday. Apart from it being midweek it's also the day for my first gym deadline with the new "consequences".

I did it!

Did you doubt me?
It's OK, i did too. In fact, it very nearly didn't happen!!
Daughter's coughing -again! I considered having her home today, or rather i was going to -then i remembered what the consequences would be. Because her being home would make it very difficult for me to go to the gym, so i shot out of bed, pushed her some cough medicine, got her dressed and off to nursery. Then home for a meeting. After that i had some tech issues with my Mp3-player (seriously what is it with me and Mp3-players?! They all FAIL!), this took longer than it should have (tech stuff tends to do that, and it goes unnoticed too!), so i didn't get quite as long at the gym as i would've liked (or as Brutus would like). I did 30mins on the treadmill -not lots i know! But i got there and i did so without being begrudging about it. I liked it.
I went for a shower and a trip to the sauna.

Have i told you guys about the sauna deal? No?
No, didn't think so.

-Every time i go to the gym i am supposed to go in the sauna. In the sauna i'm supposed to masturbate. Yeah you heard me right! Though i do have a "get-out-clause" that say i don't have to (but can!) if due to privacy reasons, i e if i'm not alone i don't have to. This is due to my humiliation hard limit. So in fact this is sailing pretty close to the wind for me.
Not masturbating in the sauna (for other reason than privacy-clause) usually brings a masochistic task as punishment. So you can in fact say that every gym task has a sub-task attached to it (hahaha ain't i just funny?! *lol*). Today i achieved both. So no missing Brutus tonight! Or task (not under that pretense at least *lol*) *grins*

Next deadline: Friday.

You guys will keep me on my toes won't you?

Thanx!

;)

I've also started a diet today. It's a shake meal replacement diet -it tastes awful!! *LOL* Well that's what you get for buying chocolate flavour when you know full well you won't like it (but c'mon that was FOUL beyond imagination!) -but hey it was on offer! But seeing it was so disgusting i went and bought another flavour as well today, and the soup version -i was starving! *lol*
Yes, it is a bit pricey, but i'm so bummed at gaining 5 out of the 7kg's i lost last year that it's worth it!

(And if you think about it it really isn't much different in price than eating out a couple times)

So for the next little while it will be liquids only for melinda (oh help me god! i get starving just saying it! *lol*), well i've bought some celery and carrots to munch on if needed -i mean you gotta chew sometime don't you?!

Hmm, i think that's it for now.

Till later, Ciao!

Think you may have noticed, huh?

Well, I've been ordered by Brutus to write a post.

So, I am.

Eloquent? No.
Written -yes!

No, I'm not taking the piss. I will do my best.

Lots and lots to write about, no words to do it with.

But I can tell you some great news!

My regular readers will know that my living situation has not been ideal -well, I've gotten a flat!!!
And I can move in in less than 2 weeks!!
OK, it's only a 1 bedroom so I'll have to sleep in the living room, but it will be our own place.
WICKED!

OK, so it looks more like this =P But it's wicked all the same =)

Can't wait..... =)

So, lots to look forward to! Packing (not so fun), moving, unpacking & organizing, shop stuff for flat (when money permits), decorate -have Peace & Quiet! So every other weekend I will actually be ALONE & not only child-free, but alone! And I can have friends over -I can have BRUTUS over!! (eventually).

Yay for Freedom!

I will post about everything else too -I promise!
Eventually....when it will be worth reading.

Sir, I hope this met the requirements, even if only just scraping by....