Thursday, August 4, 2011
Hard times
As of today Master will be more or less unreachable for the next SIX days(!!). Apart from the occasional text messages (you see I have promised 'No bombardment') we will not really have any communication at all. I'm used to speaking with Him every night -every night we chat for at least a couple of hours.
This time away is important for Him, as it is of personal nature and not business. This helps, because when He's away on business it just sucks, but now I know it is something He really needs -something that is good for Him, something that will make Him happy -and how could that not make me happy too? So I understand, I support and I am happy for Him in this -I truly am. It is still going to be a hard time for me though. When we don't speak at our usual time I get a sense of loss, only time that is different is when I have asked for that time off to do something. I still miss Him but it means I am doing something, like having a movie night with my girl friend (Yes, notice the space in between the two words), or actually sleeping after having been awake for two days or so.
But when it is complete absence, and for such a prolonged time, it feels odd.
We had a really nice chat last night, and we spoke of how we'd miss each other and how we are going to make up for lost time -He wants me there for two weeks! *jumps up and down* How this would be the next phase for us, for Him to exercise His Ownership of me more fully. He told me to use that thought to get me through the week -"you are MINE" He said -oh god what those words do to me! *weak at the knees*
So as promised there will be no pouting and no text message bombardments. Something Kitten for Sir said in her latest post came to mind, so I will be strong for Him, I'll keep my head high and I'll remember His words that will reassure me and remind me of His Ownership, that I am His and that we'll soon be together again.With love,
6 comments:
Times away from Sir like that are hard for me as well. I struggle with so many emotions during that time and I have to force myself to remember this is only a small part of the bigger picture. Be strong.
August 4, 2011 at 3:11 PMYou're very wise. Good luck with thinking positive!
August 4, 2011 at 4:36 PMKitty
Thank you to you both! mijena you are so right, it is only a small part of the bigger picture.
August 4, 2011 at 6:44 PMKitty: LOL i don't know about wise, but thank you for that and the good luck wishes!
It helps.
/ Sweet girl, thinking positively and being strong = )
hi sweet girl sorry to hear that your Master will be away for a few days, its hard not having that communication, and will be difficult for you but it will also help you focus, and im sure you will have something special waiting for him on his return. Also sorry to hear you dont sleep too well, that must be awful.
August 5, 2011 at 4:11 PMHugs
Hi blossom! You are always so sweet =) It is difficult. I don't have anything for His return home (I'm not there anyways), but yes I have prepared a little something for His return to the digitally living ; )
August 5, 2011 at 9:54 PMAbout the sleeping thing; I'm used to it *shrugs* -You wanna hear something funny though? When I was with Master I slept like a Princess! Even woke feeling refreshed! Hasn't happened for years. Cool eh?
Hugs back = )
Sweet girl,
August 5, 2011 at 10:44 PMIf it's any consolation I got insomnia when I was apart from Daddy and planning our wedding at the same time and finishing up my senior year of high school. I felt like I was going crazy!
I hope you're going to get to be with your Master all of the time someday soon. That's the cure for sleeping problems, lol!
Kitty
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