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A run down

So.... A year is a long time huh? I kinda just disappeared - sorry for that! *looks apologetic*

I'm not sure what i was gonna write here...but after writing that first sentence I went to Brutus' blog....and my reaction to what I found there....surprises me. It will proably change this post from what it might otherwise have become - not saying that is a bad thing.

The good thing about it is that it means, some of you at least, know the status of our relationship. I know he didn't give much details about it, more than saying that it was I that ended it. Which I can confirm - but I want to show him the same consideration that he has shown me, so I will not go in to details before I know what his position is on things.
But it was indeed I that ended things, not done lightly I might add! But I think it was what was best for both of us - I still do!
We are still present in each others' lives (in fact I've just spent a week with him!), just in a different capacity.

Most of you know what I am like, so I don't dare promise anything in regards of this blog, but I would lie if I said I haven't missed some of you and Bloggerland!

For now though, I'm gonna finish my glass of wine and consider what on earth.... well, let's say I'm surprised I can still surprise myself! hahaha

Still here?!

Wow, it's still here!
I thought this blog would've been deleted by Blogger by now - but soo glad it haven't! Lots have happened, as I'm sure it has for most ppl in this amount of time! I'm not going to write about that now though, I'm just glad i finally checked it out and pleased to see it's still here! I might write again though, if anyone still gets updates from it =P

And I think I might do some reading here myself! haha

Cheerio for now - hope everyone is good!

Lotsa luv xxx

Hiya!

Miss me?

Sorry i've been MIA again! As Sir wrote in his blog yesterday i am drowning in school work. Still am, so yes this post might effectively be a tiny bit of a procrastination technique -a good and well needed one though!
I can proudly announce that so far i have gotten top marks on every single assignment (14 of them, first 2 were just activation assignments though where you presented yourself and such). But yeah kinda proud of that, especially since i haven't even got a clue how i solved the last 3 programming assignments! o.O But i did, so i must know something at least! *lol*
Final exams are next weekend and i'm feeling just a teenyweeny bit pressured. So what do i do? Instead of doing all that cramming i've scheduled in, i do...other stuff. It's been really nice weather though, which i've mostly missed out on due to studying, i might actually take my book out and sit in the sun with it. The stuff i need the computer for i can do later.

So that's it, for the RL part. So how about me and Brutus?
Well, i'd say that in general we have improved a lot (not that i let that show last night in any way. Sorry Sir!).
Last time we were together i really tried to be submissive. I find it very difficult to mix Vanilla and D/s though, so the vanilla time of our travels were mostly that i'd say. Once back home though i really really tried. I think more than Sir even realized, or noticed. We did pretty well though i have to say. If it was simply for the fact that i wasn't being a bitch like the previous two times, or if it was due to more than that i am unsure of. However i really felt a need to be Dominated and an urge to be submissive. I wouldn't say i got quite to the point where i want to be but it was a vast improvement from later times.
Now there are big changes on the horizon once again, ones i know will set our dynamic to the test for sure! Like trips to IKEA and such = P (that includes more than a bit of browsing and getting a thing or two).

Yeah IKEA and my studies will be my downfall for sure *lol*.
Although by the time i see Sir next time these two modules will be finished and i'll be on a break (*knocks on wood and prays that there will be no unwanted interference by certain authorities*)

Then when i return part two of the programming will start! *gulp* This has made me realize one thing: i really need to do some math! My math "skills" don't even reach high school standards *blush*, and the math is getting ever more complicated : / The computer tech will be all done and dusted (which is the other module i am doing right now), and the new one will be Webdevelopment = D

OK, enough rambling and procrastination from my side now i guess!

But hmm... should eat something.......

*winks*

Revolution

or rather much needed EVOLUTION!

I think most of you have seen my link to the very good site for submissives called Submissive Guide that i have at the bottom of the blog. Yes? Well now there's a newcomer - Dominant Guide!
Finally! That's my take on it! I just hope it will become as widespread and acknowledged as SG is.
Please go and check it out -even if you are a submissive! I think just as submissive guide can be helpful to Dominants, this can be to submissives too -it never hurts seeing a coin from all sides!

Whisperings in the air

Just thought i'd send out a little whisper that Sir has started blogging again.... i know some of you follow him as well.

Scorpio (Oct 23 – Nov 21)

Saturday, Jan 26th, 2013

Your tendency is to constrain the waves of emotional intensity today because you fear what might happen if you tell the whole truth. You may be overly concerned about losing face as the dramatic Leo Full Moon lights up your 10th House of Status. Unfortunately, practicing too much self-control can lead to frustration. Keep the pressures of your life in perspective by replacing negative blame with positive solutions. Be as honest as possible and you'll be fine.

Cancer (Jun 21 – Jul 22)

Saturday, Jan 26th, 2013

You may be clinging to unexpressed feelings today as if they are irreplaceable treasures. However, today's Leo Full Moon brightens your 2nd House of Values, suggesting you might need to share what's bothering you in order to raise your self-esteem. When emotional intensity pressurizes your subconscious, it will release one way or another. Instead of waiting for something scary to happen, taking a proactive approach alleviates the tension and disperses unnecessary doubt.

I know a lot of ppl find these bullshit, and generally i just find them fun, but i tell you these ones are so damned scary close to reality it's unreal!
Sir and i are in a weird place right now. I don't really wanna go into detail here, i don't think Sir would like that, but a lot is going on.
If i'm not writing here it's mostly for that reason; i don't really know what to say about it.

If you want to know about other aspects of my life, like training and such, you can follow my other blog:

click picture to go to blog

that is now up and running again! And so am i for that matter! Had meeting with personal trainer yesterday and started VLCD today. Heading out for a long walk with the dog in a bit (just need to down one of those not no tasty shakes first *lol*).

See you soon i hope!

Up and Running again!

More or less literally!

http://melindagetsfit.wordpress.com/

It's time to get back to this => again!

"Comments"

Hiya!

I have a cpl posts in mind -i just have to write them too! *lol*

For now though i just wanted to ask -are you guys getting more and more spam comments too? I seem to be inundated with them as of late! I know i don't have word verification, but i haven't for a long time and this has started fairly recently. Anyone else have it too?

Does the new picture links at the bottom make it look messy/cluttered again??

oh just realized this is my 350th post!
(Published that is)
- cool -

Going down

HILL!

Going downhill you pervs! *lol*

Feels like my blog has done a big steep decline over the last 6 months or so = (
i'm sorry about that.
And i'm not feeling a great one coming on either, SO -so i thought (yeah dangerous stuff!) that you guys could pick a post from this time LAST year and have it revisited, maybe you could pose questions about it or something? I dunno, just trying to think of something new to dust this place off a bit before it suffocates.

So, anything in October 2011 interest you at all? Then give me a holler! OK then, a comment will do.

; )

That's the result of the poll

- i hope such is not the case anymore!

I can understand it looking messy before (however not the difficult to use part to be honest, but it's _your_ opinions that count!) and i hope that is not the case after the "little" clean-up.

I'm always interested in your feedback!

Whether it be about how the blog looks, works, what i write...well just about anything really!

So, please feel free to throw it at me =)

Anyways, i hope some improvement can be seen at least.

Now have a good night all!

Or day, depending on where you are.

Surprised

Yes, i have to admit to being surprised by the poll results! Especially since there's been some more votes for it being difficult to use even after "the clean up".

Is it really still difficult to use? There's not even many links to follow and i've cut out about half of the content. And i'm not asking because i'm taking offence -i asked for your opinions and i really want it! Because i want to make the blog the best it can be.

So thank you all for voting! Please feel free to comment on how you think it looks now (if you voted earlier) or just want to say anything about it in general.

Looking forward to hearing what you have to say!

Better days

Today has been quite good =)

- Especially compared to yesterday!

Från årsskiftet ska kapaciteten på tunnelbanans gröna linje utökas med hjälp av autopilot.

Yesterday i missed my tube by 5 seconds, which meant 9 mins waiting. I forgot to get off the tube and didn't even notice until four stations after!!

(Yes, you're allowed to laugh!)

So, i had to get off the tube and go back. Only the train going back the other way left the station just as we pulled in. What does that mean?

7 mins waiting. So instead of being slightly late, as i would've been, i was 45 mins late to my course(!).

Did it end there? Of course not!

I also managed to ruin the majority of all the work i'd done at the course! Or at least so i thought.

So how has today been better? Well, i didn't miss a single tube, i was only 15 mins late to my course ( =P ), which is completely overshadowed by the fact that not only did i fix yesterdays damage -i improved on it too! *grins*

A tad proud actually. It's really basic and just a shell really, but i have done it myself =D

If i didn't like this template so much i might've changed it, but i do, so as it is i keep tinkering with it to the best of my ability -which is not easy with a template made for Wordpress, adjusted for Blogger, but with old invalid code. So i hope you have patience with me! = D

However, i have taken the opinions in the poll to heart and i hope you can see some improvements. I'm really happy for people voting, it would be lovely if more did so, and even better if you were to specify what you dis/like.

Now it's time for dinner!

So long!

Breakfast PuSS

If you wonder why i haven't announced a winner it's because it only got 3 votes -3 different votes- and now i'm wondering: should i really keep running it?

You decide!

Thanx to those that did vote though! =)

Now i'm going to drink my coffee and i think make another sandwich -sandwich with cheese and Alphalfa was surprisingly nice!

Have a good day all!

Forgetting the end

Forgetting to go to bed again : /

This webdesign stuff is addictive!

it's

i e a whole foreign language

so you have to cross a few obstacles along the way as you stumble over them

it takes

There's a lot of involved

and it goes by trial and error

which means a lot of it ends up in the bin!

Only to have to start from the beginning again.

Sometimes i could do with an

to remind me to eat, sleep and breathe!

*LOL*

luckily enough it's Sunday (by now) =)

Opinions

As you may have noticed i am tinkering about with the blog quite a bit. This is both an attempt to clean up the blog and take the opportunity to (try to) gain some web design skills.

So, i've created a little poll where i ask what you think of the blog. If you could spare about 45 seconds maybe you would consider ticking a box or two? It would be greatly appreciated!

Oh, and if you choose 'other' feel free to leave a comment what that 'other' may be :)

Thank you in advance =)

Awww

I thought people wanted PuSS back?!

So c'mon good people -VOTE!

Comebacks

I just decided to bring back PuSS!

I know it's Monday but hey deal with it -you're getting pin-ups! ;)

*Off to search for pix*

New is old and old is back

sorry if i'm confusing you guys -still working with the layout!

No, you're not going crazy -it's all me! As usual =P

soon it'll be spick and spanners you see!

~ Maybe starting the cleaning in the Autumn helps get it ready in time for spring? ~

*lol*

Bangers & Mash

I'm the banger -banging my head against the wall that is!

And i managed to make mash out of the blog yesterday -but i also managed to put it back together again! A little better, if i may say so myself =D *a little proud*