My submissive journey: July 2011

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The other day me and Master was playing. It started of good with a spanking and after it I felt...happy, content, mellow....like I could just curl up against Him and watch a movie. Nothing sexual, nothing needy -just plain mellow. But then we continued; we moved on to clamps. In all honesty I would have preferred...

The workings of our minds

I just saw a really interesting program. It was about this 25 year old guy that had one day, sitting on the train, suddenly lost his memory. Just like that. Apparently the condition is called fugue. It's a type of amnesia that only affects your emotional memory. He could still walk, talk, even play football...

"The lower you fall, the higher you'll fly" -Chuck Palahniuk That's a quote I read today, and it struck me how true that is in TTWD(at least for me). A lot of the time when I'm really low and don't feel like doing nothing, I don't want to....I don't want anything. Often when I feel like this Master will...

More on tears, letting go and spankings.

I have recently written much about the release one can get from tears and about letting go, letting down those walls and trusting your partner to maintain control whilst having your interest at heart. Finding Sara's latest post summarised just about everything I was trying to say -here's an excerpt...

92 That's how many has been found dead so far.And the toll is rising.When this girl is close to tears from watching the news then it's bad - REALLY BAD! I feel for all those that have...

Letting go

In my previous post Tears I mentioned relief. The relief that crying can bring, the catharsis of it. To really cry you have to let go. Let go of control, let go of the walls you've built up around yourself and let go of your fear and insecurities. I am working on this. But it is hard, even when trying....

Tonight an article from Submissive Guide dropped into my mailbox. It covers the subject of opening up your relationship for play outside of the relationship the two of you have....

Being in an LDR is very different from being RT, I believe - it has both it's advantages and disadvantages. Advantages being that you really get to know each other on a personal level,...

Lifestyle mentality - Dominance - My view

Below are some texts that I have found on the Internet, to me they describe exactly the mentality I think a Dominant should have -but that is just me! What I think and how I want the Dominant I'm involved with should be.What do you think of the texts below? The Dominants Creed As the Dominant to my submissive...

Lifestyle mentality - Dominance -

We all know that there are lots of different types of Dominants out there - there are lots off different types of people out there.But I think maybe we can narrow down the Dom types a bit ; * The Carer* The Enforcer* The Tyrant (I will for ease, and for it is written from my perspective, use the term Dom...

There are different kinds of tears. You can tear up out of happiness and joy, in frustration and anger, from sadness or guilt. From being hurt and in pain -whether it is stubbing your toe or...

Thrown off course

I've felt a bit off kilter since I came back home again.Don't know what's the cause.I did experience a kind of sub-drop the week after. Luckily only lasted a day though.But it's not only that.I'm having difficulty focusing. Finding it hard to channel the pain, well to control it. Even when it feels really good....