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Thursday, November 24, 2011

Does Lucky 7 make for good Decisions?

(*Re-posted with Post Script*)

Today the countdown is down to 7.

7 days.

A week.

Usually I would be put on abstinence as of today -both pain and pleasure- to make sure I'm gagging for it by the time I arrive (haha yes, pun intended).

This time things have worked out a bit different.

For those of you that read Brutus' blog you already know this, but for the rest of you this is what's happened to make this change happen:

I have a set exercise target of at least 1 day/week at the gym + walking to/from nursery as much as possible (that's a bit over a mile and a half/ just under 3km). This is a self-imposed target that has actually been lowered from 3 times a week. So really it shouldn't be difficult at all to reach, especially considering I used to practically live at the gym a while back.
After some times absence (for several reasons) I'm finding it hard to get back into it. I know it's mostly a mental block. That and I'm starting to feel a bit....not low, ambivalent might be a better choice of word.

Last week Thursday I had still not been gym and daughter had been home from nursery all week so I hadn't even been walking. OK, a week ends Sunday (right?) but Brutus asked me if I had been at all.

No, I said ashamedly.

When will you do it?

Friday or Sunday.

(I had a kiddies birthday party to go to on Saturday that would take up the whole day and evening).


Actually, I want you to go tomorrow.

Yes, Sir. (Now wasn't that a stupid thing to say?!)

Good then.

He jokingly said (well half-jokingly anyways) that otherwise He might just impose a restriction on me so that I will only be allowed to masturbate in the sauna of the gym.
(Now shouldn't this be a great incentive to go??)

I promised I would go.

I don't usually break promises. I never defy out of spite or to be difficult. I do grumble a bit sometimes. Even openly. But I usually do what I'm supposed to do.
I rarely get punished -in fact I can't remember the last time I was!
I just like to please. To please Him all the more.
It brings me satisfaction to do so and it makes me happy. Even more so if I know it makes Him happy.

Sir is also very lenient and gives me a lot of freedom. And He takes waaaaay more cheekyness than most Doms. Not because He is a softy (well apart from when He's my Huggy-Bear *grins*) or because He isn't in control, but because it's the way He likes it (Thank God for that!).
He likes my cheekyness. Not to be confused with brattyness!
He likes me being playful and fun-loving.

However, in this case He decided something needed to be done before it came to the point of punishment. This was now Friday and I still hadn't been to the gym. As I had promised.

I pleaded with Him and cajoled that the week really does end on a Sunday.
Fine, week ends on Sunday so there was no punishment on the Friday, but a telling off for not following the "say what you do and do what you say" motto.
And He decided that something needed to be done right then.
So He imposed that masturbation restriction. It was no longer a joke -or even a half joke!
From now till the day before I leave I will only be allowed to masturbate in the sauna of the gym -and only after I've exercised!

Again, great motivator to actually do the exercise right?

Hmm, yeah one would think.
I know,  I know.... I've been a bad girl and not gone. I didn't go on Sunday (this restriction actually saved my ass from a punishment on Sunday! I'd forgotten the daughter had footie practice that would most likely keep me away from the gym -this was pure luck though!). Or Monday, Tuesday or today.

This time I don't have the one week abstinence, because of the masturbation restriction.
I kinda like that week of abstinence though.
Well, OK like may be the wrong word here -it's very very very frustrating! But I like the effect of it. And yeah, considering I'm a masochist I like the suffering a bit  =P  Even if it means no physical pain.

There is one other thing though, and that is I am supposed to lose at least 1kg before I go, with a target of 2kg. Somehow I've gained.....a few kg over the summer  = (  And I had done SO well with my weight loss! Now I'm back to square one more or less. *Red faced with shame and eyes lowered in contrition*
I really do feel bad about that. For failing. And for going from actually starting to like my body to that once again not.
If I fail this it will result in my first punishment delivered by Brutus in person (OK, that is a really appealing idea, but I won't be aiming for it. Really, I won't!).

Anyways...what I'm wondering now is if I should impose the one week abstinence on  myself (unless Master would request of me to masturbate or inflict pain on myself of course!). The thought is appealing. I know it has a good effect. But why oh why is it like my body realized today was that day, the day that would be imposed?! Because it's first today that I've become really horny! Yes, like in a need sense. Not just a  oh it would be nice sense.

It is so typical isn't it?!

But I think I might just run with it anyways -it does have a very very good effect!
Doesn't it Sir? What do You think?

I do wonder though, will I look like this   by the end of the week? *LOL* 
Yeah probably!

BUT, I think it will have me look like this
before we even get home from the airport!

Decisions, decisions....

Anyhow, we're down to


- just in case you hadn't noticed yet!

= )

P.S. I'm re-posting this today to correct the dates to avoid confusion. Further explanation will be found in the next countdown post.
(Tomorrow, Friday)
With love,


Elder said...

melinda you are making it more complicated for your self then it need be.

Look at the abstinence in a separate way. Also I say what I do and do what I say, so I keep my word:
If you exercise you are allowed to masturbate in the sauna of the gym after exercise.
If you want you can abstain in the sauna, and ponder over how nice it would feel if only you would decide not to abstain.

Do remember though, you have a pact with Kiwi, you will be letting 3 people down if you don't go to the gym this week:
Me; Kiwi; your self

And then you have that 1Kg weight loss target.
Why? I want you to like your body once more.
I want you to learn to have that discipline that comes with consistency.
I want you to stop throwing 40 euro's a month down the potty, i.e. pay for the gym and not use it.

So I think all the answers to your questions should be right here in this comment.
Puss, sweet girl

November 23, 2011 at 8:17 PM
Sweet girl said...

I know, I know... *looks down the ground*

Puss awesome man.

November 24, 2011 at 1:20 AM
kiwigirliegirl said...

well said Elder.
And sweetgirl, i know you can do it, its just starting thats the hard part. For our pact ive already done mine - but i have another session of exercise tomorrow morning....coz my Sir wont let me go down to only once a say :( He almost set a punishment of doing it 7 days a week on Tuesday when I confessed my act of disobedience.....and there is me worried that im setting scenes - and not letting him take the lead - ha!
Even if its just 20 minutes on the treadmill - you can do it :)
But i have to admit sounds to me like that appealing idea of a punishment by Elder in person is just a little too appealing......are you maybe testing here??
love and hugs kiwi xxxx

November 24, 2011 at 3:05 AM
Sweet girl said...

kiwi: you should know me better than that ;)
and 20mins on the treadmill alone is a waste of time (that burns like 50 kcal!) and is no different from me walking to nursery (takes 25-30mins). No not testing at all, just low and tired.

November 24, 2011 at 10:20 AM
kiwigirliegirl said...

SG, I so disagree with you, walking/running on the treadmill, setting inclines and declines is NOT the same as walking to nursery with your little one :P
And I still think the appealing idea of being punished by Elder in person is a little too appealing ;)
But maybe if you are feeling low and tired you need a tonic or some B vitamins?? We have stuff here we can disolve in water and it makes a refreshing fizzy drink but sparks up the energy levels :)
hope you feel better soon
love and hugs kiwi xxx
P.S. get to the gym!!dont let me down my friend :) xxx

November 24, 2011 at 11:51 PM
Sweet girl said...

kiwi: you can disagree all you like, i was using my own gym stats ;) 20min on the treadmill (on weight loss program) makes you burn about 100kcal in 30-35mins (incl. warm-up and cool down period). and that is doing 3km, which is about the same as my nursery walk. yes a bit less inclination but on the whole the same. Trust me ;)
I really could do with lifting some weights though.

Just for the record; it has nothing to do with being punished by Brutus in person ;) I'm just having a dip, as I do. I will have to be more strict with taking my meds and i'll soon be up again. I wish some B-vitamins would be enough.

I'm trying, just not hard enough obviously. I hope I perk up in time too.

Oh btw, your step aerobics don't do much on it's own either -you should combine it with something for effect :) Been meaning to say. Here's for both of us fixing it this week! ;)

November 25, 2011 at 1:30 AM
Sweet girl said...

oh P.S. I don't walk with her, and I have a pretty decent pace ;)

November 25, 2011 at 1:52 AM
Elder said...

Can we have you 2 meet in a MUD fight.
I will do the BBQ, Kiwi's HOH can stand at the beer tap.

November 25, 2011 at 1:00 PM
Sweet girl said...

oh shush =P

November 25, 2011 at 3:24 PM
Elder said...

And we will tie one hand behind melinda's back.

November 25, 2011 at 5:35 PM
Sweet girl said...

*whispers* sorry. *looks real real sweet* =D

November 25, 2011 at 8:24 PM
Terror said...

Omg how Will i survive without My sunil :( but you know i wish you always the best and am happy for you :) time to read brutus blog have alot to catch up puss

November 25, 2011 at 9:54 PM
Sweet girl said...

oh indeed a lot Terror! And you know I'll miss you too <3

November 25, 2011 at 10:00 PM
Elder said...

Oh Terror I am sure melinda will miss you as well, just as she said.
She has already stocked up on phone vouchers.

Oh and I offered melinda to take you with her, but she did not take up on that :-P

November 25, 2011 at 11:47 PM

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