My submissive journey: 2012

Stars, snow and revelations

Thursday, December 13, 2012 - You may find your core values being called into question as today's Sagittarius New Moon falls in your 2nd House of Self-Esteem. Although someone else's actions could trigger issues that raise your concern, there's a chance that others might actually be following your lead. Keep in mind that no one else can make you feel better about who you are; your self-worth must come from within. Yeah, i'll try to remember that...

Friday, December 14, 2012 - Be bold and take a chance by demonstrating your willingness to do a job differently today, even if your unconventional approach makes you less efficient. Me unconventional? Never heard of! =P The potential for a significant breakthrough is great, yet your most brilliant plans won't conform to comfortable routines. Yeah like i have any routines at all -let alone comfortable ones! Nevertheless, you don't need to act on every brilliant idea. Pick the best one and then work to make it real. Haha -even the stars know of my "quirky" tendencies! *lol*

Saturday, December 15, 2012 - The present situation seems familiar, but it's highly possible that you only played through the scenario in your mind. Oh my gawd that is sooo ME! Do that a lot! Now it's time to live it out in reality as the currents of change pick up speed. You could exhaust yourself trying to fight it, but it's smarter to just go with the flow. Even if you're not heading exactly where you want to go today, remember that the tides can reverse directions suddenly. Save your strength for later on when you'll need it to reach your final destination. Huh! Convenient on a child-free Friday =P

OK, so that was the daily horoscopes, but what is a typical Scorpio?

The sensual side of Scorpio plays out on the surface -- intense, deep and passionate is the Scorpion's style. But what's more important to you is your inner side that's hidden from the world -- and inside, it's all about metamorphosis. Ruled by dark Pluto and represented by the poisonous Scorpion, there's a shadowy side to this zodiac sign. However, once your dark nature can be transformed into one of peace and understanding, higher consciousness is attainable. Yeah, if that's not me, then i dunno what is!

And how about Sir?

There's no creature more loyal than Cancer. Your home-oriented self is all about creating a comfortable, stable and protective environment for your loved ones. Nostalgic by nature, you have a tendency to draw inward, just as the Crab pulls into its shell to shield itself from the harsh outside world. Cautious and emotional, Cancers should steer clear of bottling up emotions, as minor problems can easily turn into major catastrophes.
Same here, sooo true!

Love Compatibility For:
Scorpio and Cancer

As a water sign you tend toward emotional intensity and psychic perceptions. You are acutely aware of the undercurrents of your environment and are able to detect the moods of the people around your with your probing mind. Uh-huh! *Nods*

Cancer is also a water sign who expresses feelings and moods with greater unpredictability than you. You both tend to hold in your feelings, but for different reasons. Yep! Yours are so powerful that you often tone down their intensity so as not to scare others. Your Cancer lover, however, is often quiet because they are worried that if they shared their feelings, others wouldn't love them. For them, it is an issue of building enough trust so they feel secure with verbalizing emotions. Me thinks that might just be correct...

Crabs can hide behind a hard outer shell to help them with issues of insecurity. Your partner's soft, caring and nurturing character coaxes you out of the hidden corners of your own suppressed emotions. Ehm, yeah...Suppressed emotions -me?! Never! *Insert eye roll* Meanwhile, you strengthen their intuitive hunches and teach them to have courage enough to stand up for what need.

Your lover can be highly expressive sexually, but may be more hesitant than you, needs tender encouragement and care along the way. Still, Crabs are able to receive and reflect the power of your physical urges, even if they seem more fragile. Hmm...me. Physical urges...me that's so innocent can't possibly have physical urges?! *LOL* Yeah....**little horny slut** *giggles*

Differences of style can get in the way of easy day-to-day routines if the Moon in your chart is in Aries, Libra, Sagittarius or Aquarius. Hahahahahaha Yeah!...yeah that would be like,uhm...always??

Regardless of the Moon's placement, you enjoy each other's company oh so very true, even doing 'nothing' =) and may be attracted to spend quality time near the ocean or different types of water environments. If the two of you choose to create a household together, it will be full of powerful emotions, yet it can ultimately turn into a quiet nurturing and private space, separate from the busy outside world. *smiles*

That's just so.....Us!

Now for my true followers that could be bothered to read all the way here through my nonsensical drivel, a little window into my surroundings.

Not snowing like that anymore, now it's kinda sunny actually.
Still staying in though =p

Oh! And one more thing; Sir will be spending New Years with me!

Yep, He's coming here!

*grins*

....

Actually wrote this post several days ago, but didn't post it because i was gonna ask Sir what he thought of posting his star sign, then i remembered we congratulate each other's birthdays on the blogs, so figured it shouldn't matter. Then stuff happened....

I could make it into a separate post but i've decided to just add it here (so all you who can't be bothered with my horoscope stuff only have one post to disregard ;) )

Sunday, December 16, 2012 - You can delve into the depths of your own inner world today or become fascinated with someone else's. Either way, be prepared to go on a magical yet bewildering ride, since it may be impossible to know what is real as you are experiencing it. You might actually slip into a parallel universe for a while as you are entranced by a fantasy. If you have the courage to go on this imaginative journey, you'll return soon enough with a treasure from the distant reaches of your own subconscious mind.

Wish i had time for that!

Sunday, December 16, 2012 - Even if someone thinks you are acting a bit strange today, you still could be truly inspired. Your senses are so finely tuned now that you might be able to hear mermaids singing sea chants in an unintelligible forgotten language. Oddly, these strange sounds make perfect sense and you intuitively know exactly what they mean. The waters of your subconscious are rising but there's no threat of danger, so don't bother trying to hold back the flood.

OK, so we'll both be psychotic?! Hmm maybe it's a good thing we are apart today =P

*LOL*

I just wanna add something here:

although i think this is fun (and freakishly accurate at times!) i'm not one of these people that "consult the stars" or live my life by them, i do however think they can be inspirational at times.

Don't worry, i might be mental but i'm no witch =P

Head spinning

Whirlwinds. Spaghetti. Sloshing water and crashing waves. That's my mind right now. Thinking too many things at the same time. Significant things. Things that can't be disregarded, yet not coherent enough to form a full sentence, even if there are full sequences of thought. It's a bit like a tape being played on an old recorder, you know how you'd sometimes look for a specific place on the tape and you could fast forward, press play for a millisecond, continue ff, playback, rewind,stop and slow motion. vvvvvrrrrrssssssiiiiiitttttiiiiiiivvvvvbrreehhhhhv. It's a bit like that.

And i'm so emotional right now.
The atrocities in the US did nothing to help -and i have too much to say about that, but this is not the time.

And I finished reading a story today. A fan fiction i started reading long ago, the very same one that triggered me to go to the cemetery a few weeks back. It's called "Tattoos Like Mile Markers". I recognize so much of it, even if the story is a lot more "hardcore" than what i have done. It's at times a very very dark story, but it's also full of hope and light. Sometimes it's difficult to see for the clouds but it's there. And love, as full of self-loathing and self-blame and shame as it is, it's also full of love.

Even with all the shit that goes on in my life and all the turmoil in my head, i am still very blessed, yesterday and today i feel it especially.
I have a wonderful daughter -that's the same age as the kids of yesterdays horror story, which i guess is why it hit home so hard.
I have Sir that is always thinking of me, helping me as much as he can -and as much as i let him (i know, i know, spare me the spiel please). He loves me and cares for me regardless of all the shit i come with. He tries his best and puts me before a lot else that is important too. I love him. Sometimes i forget just how much, but i do, and right now i'm feeling it deeply. Seems i'm a bit emotional at the moment.
Not a feeling i'm overly familiar with. I have mixed feelings about that; it feels like a blessing to actually f e e l emotional, at the same time as i'm not so comfortable with beeing emotional, if that makes sense.

Damned, feel drained already. Maybe i should try to go sleep, since it's way past my bed time as it is (i did notify Sir of that via mail for those of you who wonder ;) ). Speaking of, Sir is away on business and will be hard reached over the next few days, i will miss him. No, i miss him. Soon it will be back to normal for a little while though, until xmas when he'll be away again. On the upside he is coming to spend New Years with me =) Yep, he'll be here for a week! It's another milestone in our relationship you could say, it will be a first seasonal holiday spent together. "Next year Christmas", Sir's words....just carrying a slight hint of admonishing in it, but that i deserve. But yes please Sir, next year Xmas. Absolutely fine by me!
And TB is as excited about Sir coming as i am -she's absolutely exuberant about it! =) He's got a real fan there. I'm happy to say, it would be a pain if it was the opposite, which i thought would be more likely to be honest. But she adores Sir, and for that i am happy. I'm sure she'll wrap him around here little finger just as easily as she does everyone else =P

Sir, you be safe in your travels now -you have 2 very expectant ladies waiting for you!

Dunno where these ramblings lead or even if it's what's in my head (haha that rhymed!) but i feel a bit quieter now. Let's see if it's still the case once the computer is off and it's time to try to sleep again.

But for you guys it's au revoir!

Reminiscing and feeling bad

Just stumbled upon this old picture, from May 2011, and i have to admit it looked kinda nice (not that i thought so at the time). A lot of gym was done after that as well....all that hard work is gone though -not a chance i'd get in that now! Was a struggle that broke a sweat back then, now impossible =(

That feels kinda shitty. Seriously need to get a grip.

Luckily it's soon New Years which tends to bring resolutions right?

;)

Punishments and such

Earlier today:

I am right now at this writing moment sitting in a plane heading for Paris where I'll transfer to my flight home. I'm sitting eating an apple, waiting for breakfast to arrive. My e-book didn't download in time so i figured i could blog a bit (i hope it will save alright!). There's been quite a lot going on over these past days with Brutus. Stress, bad moods and arguments, but also snuggles, love and laughs, movies and nice dinners. A trip to IKEA which resulted in a very nice little work station for Sir. Oh and there was spanking. One kinda maintenance, as already mentioned, one HEFTY punishment spanking, and last night a small one just for fun.

I guess out of all that it's the punishment you're interested in hearing about, yes? Yeah, thought so. I don't even remember which day it was now or specifically what I'd done, but i had been moody, irritable and probably quite obnoxious to be honest. At dinner he had enough. We'd planned on watching a movie after dinner but it was now announced that "after dinner's finished you can go straight to bed and get a spanking". Oh! "Fine. Yes Sir." We finished our dinner, as you can imagine not in the best atmosphere. When i'd finished eating i asked Sir if he wanted coffee, as per usual. Yes he did, but i was to wait with making it until he was finished. Oh ok then. Pfft. Once he'd finished i got up, made the coffee, put it on the fire and started doing the dishes. You know i'm like really ocd with the dishes (like <really>), and they usually take a long time to do, but you know what they say; a silent woman is an angry woman. A silent woman cleaning even more so. And trust me i was pissed. I can't even remember why (only that Sir asked that exact same question during dinner and i didn't have any better answer for him than for you). The dishes were even done by the time the coffee was. Or no actually not quite. I poured us both a coffee and i pretty much downed mine while doing the last pieces of dishes (yeah ouch hot!), put down my cup (or ok i might have slammed it a little), stomped off to the bedroom, more or less tore my clothes off and placed myself naked across the bed, and waited. Didn't have to wait too long.
He was nice enough to warm me up first - i have to give him props for that, he's gotten really good at doing that! - after that everything is a bit of a blur. I know he used almost all implements: the paddle brush, the shoe horn, the crop, the belt, and i believe that thing he made of my thin studded belt too. All i know is that i've never had a punishment even remotely that severe. And i have never hurt like that before. Ever. Ok childbirth and such discounted. I cried. For me, quite a lot. Not half as much as Sir thought thought nor half as much as i myself wanted either. But i cried. And yes i got those images in my head again. Sometimes spanking helps, sometimes it brings it on. Sir wondered afterwards why i didn't tell him to stop. Why didn't i? Because i didn't find it relevant. Also they'd already started so what was the point? And maybe also that i didn't want to be accused of backing out. Or feel like i did.
But Fuck did it hurt! It hurt like a m-f. Scuse my language (sure you're used to it by now though).

It is a punishment i will not soon forget. Not that it stopped me from continuing being argumentative. *insert eyeroll*
I don't think anything can stop me from that.
I'm still black and blue all over my arse. And lovehandles. Oooh why do they hurt so?! They hurt so bad! I actually laid there quietly taking it all. Well mostly, and i guess it depends on your definition of silent. But there was no howling if we put it like that.
It was when he started using the loopy bit of the shoehorn that he said that i had to let him know when I'd had enough. And that just broke the barrier for me. The excruciating pain and then the all clear to stop it had me begging him to stop. And i mean begging.
I lay there for a while, more or less completely still, quietly sobbing into the pillow. After a little while Sir asked if i wanted a hug. I nodded my head and slowly crawled up to him. Mostly for his sake actually. I know how much he hates punishments, and i think that one was almost as difficult for him as for me -at least mentally.

Oh almost in Paris now. Time flies! (see what i did there? Haha i am so witty. *rolls eyes at self*)

There you have it. All the gory details of my first really severe punishment. Bad enough that i didn't even bother counting the strokes of the belt. Many. That's enough to know.
It was a fair punishment. I deserved it. Like so many other times when i haven't gotten any consequences at all. This time i did. And i am happy for it.

Now i soon have to get ready for landing, so on that note i will love you and leave you.

Catch you when i'm back at a totally freezing Sweden (yes we're talking like minus 15°C!)

Ok have to switch off phone now.

Bye!

Now:

Tired. Cold. Sooo cold here!

Happy to see TB. Unpacked. Some dishes done. Xmas presents stowed away.

The second leg of the travel home was a bit hectic. We were late into Paris which meant i almost missed my connecting flight. Stress. Especially when you're like me and of course run in the wrong direction in the airport! Great when you only have a few mins marginal. But i got there in the end and luckily for me there was a huge queue so i made it in time (with time to spare even). I slept most of the second flight, even though i had decided i wouldn't. But it was nice. I guess i needed it too,was out the house at 5 am this morning -not many hours sleep ;)

Not much more interesting than that to say i'm afraid.

So that's it for me for this time, i'll leave ya to it ;)

Tjenatjosan ciao bye!

Digging into the Underworld

So according to kiwi the moral of yesterdays story was to not watch any more Underworld. Well that's easily done since we watched the last one yesterday. No i didn't sleep well. Another benzo* night but not as bad at all. So yes stupid, but i'm glad i did it. I have to get past it at some point, and who better to try it with than Sir?
I think there's an even bigger moral to the story though, and that is that you guys are a lot more freak-tolerant than i give you credit for!

Luffs ya guys! All of you.

The actual intolerance of the self-avowed tolerant -- are they really tolerant and accepting, or are they actually intolerant and unaccepting, pretending to be tolerant and accepting? ?

Sir and i haven't quite gotten back to where we were a few days ago yet, but i hope we're getting there -i need SEX!! *lol* After 5 times a day for a few days, going to Vanilla standards just doesn't cut it =P OK, so he did give me an orgasm (thank you Sir!) -but let's face it, it's not the same is it? I need both =P *greed subbie* We've even been low on BJ's! OK much of that is due to me fucking up my jaw during that car-ride-BJ from the summer *lol*
That and the fact that my tits were kinda-killed-by-mauling during the last one *LOL* I'm sure the break is soon over though ;)

On that note i'll post what many of you probably find annoying (but at least i have ck on my side =P), yes you guessed, my horoscope. Today i like it!

Thursday, November 29, 2012 - When sexy Venus is in your sign, you are even more inclined to delve into the shadows as you seek the magic that often is shrouded in darkness. Today you have a desire to go even deeper, as Venus dances with physical Mars. The only thing that can stand in your way now is you; buried treasure awaits your discovery so face your insecurities and start digging.

Ooh a sneak peek at tomorrow's one was kinda intriguing too! ^^

So, how you guys all doing today?

Have a great day/evening all, and i'll catch yous later!

Muah!

Jinx Pinx Schminx

Yeah, i know of no one that can Jinx the way i can!

You know that post from yesterday?

Well you can cancel it!

My luck ran out last night. Yep! I wanted spanking? Yes. Not this kinda spanking though. This spanking was no fun. Not laughs and giggles and squirming. It was gritting teeth and tears. It was....dispelling demons in my head. It was...not fun and games.

Also my attitude was different last night. I was no longer feeling warm and connected and loving. I can't say when that changed. I can pinpoint the last thing i did to embody that feeling, but nothing more than that. Maybe Sir can, i dunno.

We'd been watching the second installment of Underworld. Normally i can't watch these things -sadly, because horror stuff was all that i used to watch once upon a time =(

Anyways, with Sir it seems possible. Although this time maybe i didn't walk away from it completely scot free. Afterwards my head was...noisy. I'm not sure i can explain that better than that rather than noise it's pictures. Images, relentlessly flashing behind my retina, and no, it's not nice cuddly pictures.

Head feels a bit like this....

....

....and sees a bit like this:

i was considering at making these ones into an animated gif. -but that would just be stupid right?!
Sometimes the geek in me takes over o.O

And yes i Googled that shit! Clever? Not in the least! Guess what next search brought up? Yep the one thing that i absolutely cannot take AT ALL! Yeah, it's what i used to see at night when i was once borderline-psychotic; the fucking girl in The Exorcist (and no that was not a pun, didn't even think of it at first). OK, i'm sharing a bit much here now.....TOO much i think.Anyways....spanking usually helps. Sometimes it starts it but it also relieves it. I'm not gonna use it as an excuse to say that was the reason for my attitude, nor will i say i should not have gotten punished. They were not really related issues.You know, i've really lost my thread here...as you surely have noticed!My phone is calling me, and has been for like the past 2 mins, so i'll go check that then see if i can remember what the fuck i'm talking about when i get back (insert eyeroll).2 mins later: Do i? Do i fuck. Oh well...i guess we skip all the freakish stuff that will just make all of you see me as a freak and go back to the spanking part you all feel at home with.
Yeah, the spanking.It was....endurance.Nothing else.Although nice at the same time. Or nice is not the word, but maybe good?A bit like exorcising demons (excuse the bad pun).Trying to remember what the actual spanking consisted of....Crop, belt, shoe horn. Hand. The usual suspects i suppose.Funny how 1 activity can be perceived so differently in 2 different circumstances huh?
My head's a mess after writing this. Disregard everything i've said, i probably shouldn't have posted it -but you know me, i can't help myself once it is written.

Oh btw, if you're wondering, the spanking ~~and later 2 benzo~~ made sure i slept just beautifully all night long -until Sir wanted me for sex that is ;)

*LOL*

Ciao for now!

Next time i'll try to be more..."normal"

- i promise! (ehm, kinda...)

(Oh and now we're downloading the last movie of the trilogy -wish me luck! *lol* =P)

Unknowingly granting wishes

You know how i said i hoped for more maintenance and play yesterday? Well sometimes it's like they hear us even though they haven't even read the post, you know?

Sir came home from work early yesterday -to my surprise. It meant i wasn't finished with my chores, but He said it was OK since my time was cut short (i have done them today though btw! *GoodGirlIam*).
I was happy to hear that -i'd been horny all day and just wanted to...well you know ;)
I finished up what i was doing and we had a beer.
It was too early for dinner so we occupied our time with...miscellaneous activities ;)

We ate dinner and enjoyed some nice wine and later we put on a movie (Underworld: Evolution).
Afterwards we moved to the bedroom to be a bit more comfortable and some snuggles (no, that's not covert for sex -that's still to ~~cum~~ come ;) )

Anyways, to get to the important part; eventually we played. *Grins*

He must've been feeling devious because he wanted to put this on me!
Now it's tiny (as you can see, the memory card is just to demonstrate the size), so you might think it's light and innocent too? I can tell you it definitely is not!
Especially not where he put it. Can you guess? No, further down. Yes, not only down there but there. You know?
First time round he could not let it go, it was too much. I took a...what you could call a pain-preparation moment, and then said he could try again. This time he let go. Owowowowch! He's delighted it's on,so what does he do? He gets up and goes to get the bloody camera!
From a different room!!
Hmm i think i might have cursed at this point o- :-) (see the halo? It tilts a bit but it's there! =P). He took a picture then he was kind enough to remove it.
But he didn't stop there. I was told to turn over on my belly and he got the crop, the paddle and the shoe horn. He's become very good at warming up though i must say! =) Took a good "beating" without being all black and blue today =D
After some time i asked Sir if he would consider changing implement. He asked me if i wanted him to go back to the shoe horn (i think), but i wanted the belt. For some reason i like the belt. He was nice enough to grant me my request. I took 28 lashes to start with -i was kinda proud at that, i've only taken 10 without a minutes breather before! But the OCD in me begged him not to stop. He laughed when i told him he couldn't stop at such a number as 28. He wasn't counting -i sure was ;)
We ended up at 50. Yep, 50 *grins*
I think there was some more activity after that but i can't remember. Well, i can't remember what happened right after. I do however remember what came after that. It was time to turn over again! *gulp with a big G*
My memory fails me but i know he used the crop, the shoe horn and the belt. On my stomach/abdomen AND my pussy. I think both sides of the shoe horn, as when he used it on my backside earlier. That hurts -no correction: pussy whipping FUCKING HURTS! And it is so difficult to stay still and not close your legs -the reflex to do so is so strong! (Haha for some reason that makes me think of you Kiwi! =P)
It's not even the pain that is the most difficult to handle -it's the fear of the pain that is difficult.
I'd say 2/3's of pain is in your mind. Therefore you need to be in control of your mind to be able to control the pain. Focus is key. It's when i lose focus that the, what i call, panicky-pain sets in. Panicky-pain is anything but good. It's a show-stopper. This is usually the time i say "Pause" and take a few seconds, or even a minute, to recompose myself, find focus, and maybe even dig deep for some courage. Not to mention willpower and stubbornness. (This is the Pain-preparation moment {from now on known as Ppm})
Now i hope she don't mind me mentioning it, (but since she just posted about it i hope she won't) but me and kiwi has spoken of this before. I've always said it's unfair of her Sir to expect her to be still and stay in position when he gives her pain -especially considering he's not the most light-handed person out there. I never actually realized she meant she was hopping around the room though! *LOL* My sweet sweet kiwi -luffs ya chix!
Her own description of it:

"I jump around like something not quite right, like jumping beans. I cannot manage to stay in position. And when I say I don’t stay in position, honesty,I jump up and hop around the room like a kangaroo on speed."

Well, my friend, i hope maybe i've helped you a bit there with what i wrote before. Step 2 is to get Sir to acknowledge it too.
Focus, control and willpower. And when that's failing, a possibility to regain composure by getting a moments "Pause" for some Ppm. Rinse, lather, repeat.

As an end note: let's see what Sir has got in store for me tonight. I'll be sure to let you guys know ;)

Till then have a continued good day or evening depending on where you are.

See you soon!

Just for you kiwi:

You know

xxx

Update from Brutusland

Yep, i'm here!

And....it's good. Really good. We're good.
As you know i haven't blogged much lately (read ages), so there's quite a void of information in your direction.
Let me fill you in, as best i can ( you know me and my memory and time perspective and...yeah well all that )...
Over the last few weeks things haven't been as usual between me and Brutus. We've been arguing. Bickering. Discontented. Now, although i am can be very argumentative we've never really argued before. Not as in fighting. Disagreed yes, of course, but not like this. We've both been upset with one another, angry with each other and i think just generally....off. As much as it has sucked i think it has brought something positive with it too.
Rocking the boat may be precarious at times, but it is needed to get ripples on still waters. We needed ripples. The waters had been stock still for far too long, and with it frustration brought to the surface for both of us.
It's been a bit difficult but i think it had to be done and that it was done at the right time at that.
Now i'm here and we're good.
It feels like we're closer, much more warmer towards each other than last time and....connected. Oh and horny! *LOL* we've been fucking like rabbits!
Was kinda fun when Brutus' parents asked what we've done since i arrived "Eeh uhm, we went food shopping and...ehm...we've slept in..." i think Sir's reply was. *LMAO* =P
Well can't really tell the folks we've fucked 5-6 times a day *lol* add spanking to that and i think He'd be in the dog house =P

Speaking of, we had a pretty good spanking session last night. Maintenance style. During it we talked, we laughed and well...occasionally i winced and Ow!'d ;)
He used The Meany crop, the paddle brush and those big hefty hands of His. Oh and the evil shoe horn! But it was used nicely.
It was good.
i'm hoping for more of where that came from. And play. Hopefully punishment won't be needed, but if it is warranted then that too.

So, we're pretty good.
I only got here late Friday evening, so we have another week before i go back home.

I'll try to keep you updated on the ups and downs and ins and outs (pun intended ;)) of what's going on here in Brutusland.

Till then, be well, stay safe and be happy!

Annoying?

Yes i'm posting horoscopes again -because they're so damned freakishly spot-on!

Sunday, November 25, 2012 - You may appear cool and aloof, but that's not how you're feeling today. It's more likely that someone has not been listening to you and you're tired of running into the same old wall of resistance. Rather than expressing what's on your mind just like previous times, you're considering what extreme measures it will take in order to be heard. Be patient; a major breakthrough is on the horizon.

(A/n: OK this one wasn't so spot-on, but i did like the last sentence)

Monday, November 26, 2012 - You're ready for fun today, but obligations at work may force you to delay a previously scheduled social event. Unfortunately, your resentment might grow and encroach onto areas of your life that were working fine. Thankfully, you can nip a problem in the bud if you're aware of it, so watch for signs of negativity before it surfaces. Facing difficult issues now enables you to emerge stronger and brighter from any situation.

On the Lurve side of things:

General Weekly Love Horoscope Influences

The week may get off to a slow start socially with needy Venus joining grumpy Saturn on Monday and Mercury barely moving as it turns direct. But the good news is that any self-doubt or possible lack of affection is a fast-moving trend. The diversity-seeking Gemini Full Moon Lunar Eclipse on Wednesday is bound to bring interesting news and sudden surprises to shake things up. Venus' sweet sextile with passionate Mars on Thursday starts a warming trend heading into the weekend that could lead to some cozy and cuddly experiences.

Scorpio Love Horoscope

For the Week of Nov 26th, 2012 -- If there's any ambiguity in your relationship life, it's likely to reach a turning point this week. Wednesday's Gemini Full Moon Lunar Eclipse falls in your 8th House of Deep Sharing where issues arise around intimacy. Although discussions with a pal or partner could go on endlessly, it's time to narrow your focus, make a hard choice and move forward. You don't need to have everything go your way to be happy, but you must be clear about what you want for any chance of satisfaction now. The Moon shifts into watery Cancer on Friday, giving you a chance this weekend to connect with someone on a deeper emotional level.

For you that have bothered reading this far: there will soon be an update on me and Brutus ;)

Fly fly away!

Sitting at the airport waiting for my flight heading towards Sir =D

I'm hoping to have plenty of update worthy tattletales for you! ;)

Good reminders

Now this, this is something to remember!

Monday, November 19, 2012 - You might not get everything you want today, yet there are still plenty of opportunities to make the best of current circumstances. Part of your problem may be your inflated hopes, leading you to expect things to fall magically into place. Try not to put too much stock in anything that isn't working out, for the immediate changes you make now can bring deeper satisfaction down the road.

Digging in

Sunday, November 18, 2012 - You may want to redecorate or reorganize at home with the Moon brightening your 4th House of Domestic Conditions. Whether you are addressing your physical environment or a complicated family problem, this is an opportune time to work through an emotionally charged issue. Tackle the toughest tasks now because you have the determination to resolve them and the fortitude to finish what you start.

Sounds like a plan!

It also works quite well with the domestic tasks (and punishments! more on that later) Sir has been having me doing.
So maybe, just maybe i can pull it off....

Oh i suck!

....at being submissive right now. I wish i was sucking more like someone in Twilight (IN not to be confused with ON someone! *LOL* Although now that i mention it....=P)

OK, this is not the time to be writing up confessions -it's way beyond my bedtime (OK, so there was a confession anyways) and i should sleep.

Oh and kiwi my friend -thanx! You know why.... <3 (even if it will get me in trouble *lol*)

OK,checking out now.

Cheerio!

i was sitting at the doorway under the flagpole

Yesterday i was at the Twilight marathon at the cinema - all 5 movies consecutively! And all i have to say about Breaking Dawn Part 2 is WOW! OMFG! and GO SEE IT!! It is AMAZING!

I stood queuing for 2½hrs before the doors opened (so i was lucky and only had around 100 peeps before me -that means about 600 behind me =P), then it was 10hrs of movies + breaks and so on. I got home at 4am this morning.
Only downside was that i had agonizing stomach cramps from like the 3rd movie onwards -but that didn't deter me from staying till the end ;)

It is sooooo good! Beyond anything you could have thought about it beforehand.

Go see it!

To all you non-Twilighters out there: sorry for the ramble =P

Cool or what?!

Now i know i haven't blogged in yonks! And this is just gonna be a pic post at that, but i just had to show you guys this!Isn't that cool?!

Scope of the day

ME curious?! Has n e v e r happened! You hear me? Never. (said the cat with not so many lives left *lol*)

Well, let's see if this day can lead to some enlightenment then.

Friday, November 2, 2012 - Your curiosity may get the best of you now, but the day's energy has the potential to take you far beyond learning something new. It also involves sharing your ideas with others. Your thoughts could even create sudden illumination, awakening those around you. Nevertheless, don't be too concerned about the effect you might have on someone else. Your personal experience is the most important part of the journey so stick with your process and see where it leads.